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A Fathers Journey

This has been my journey.

It never ceases to amaze me how often and how easy plans seem to change. On a trip to another country you get wrecked and feel the tugging of the Spirit telling to “GO” so you easily say “Yes.” Then for the next two years that’s all you prepare for; all of your focus is on getting back to that same place that you felt your heart melt for…that you felt your heart break for. Finally the day comes when you leave for that distant land with nothing but a blank canvas in front of you just waiting to be painted on by the Father, and oh does He paint. For three months you laugh, dance, sing, teach, travel, cry, climb mountains, hug, create, smell, and taste LIFE in all its glory. Then, after two years of planning, you leave that enchanting place and head back to the familiar.


Once you get “home” your find out that God has once again changed “your” plans. He basically says, “Nope, you’ve done what I called you to do there, I want you here. I want you to be a FATHER…” You find out your beautiful wife is pregnant with your second child. Mixed emotions run through your head and you don’t know whether to be excited and joyful at the thought of having another child or broken hearted and sad that this means you cannot go back to that place that has your heart…maybe just maybe you choose a little of both.


Coming to grips with the terms you embark on another challenge all on its own and learn a new set of skills that will eventually help and save people on their worst day. You learn a new set of skills that could possibly help change a community. You gain new friends and new brothers.


Life is happening all around you but in the back of your mind you cannot, you will not, stop thinking about that far off land that has your heart. Those special people that endure things you can’t possibly imagine every single day. You’ve been placed outside of your comfort zone having to rely on others and on your heavenly Father for a living almost detesting every moment of it but knowing deep down inside that this is what it means to be a SON…Only sons can become true fathers because if a father was not first a son how then will he know what a father is?


This has been my journey. I’ve been called to the HIGHEST calling…to be a Father. I hope that one day I might be able to go back to that place that has my heart buried in its soil next to those mountains. To go back and see the faces of all those children that are fatherless…I want to be a father.

This has been my journey.



Who Am I?

Lying on a bamboo floor; a thatch roof above me, chickens and rooster below me, I could hear the soft patter of the rain on the dried leaves, and the slow rumble of the thunder in the distance. The candle we had lit that evening was causing shadows to jump and dance on the walls around me. Lying there under my mosquito net I lay thinking of the previous day; a day full of travel up, around, and down mountains, jokes Leslie and Jillian told in the van, seeing the children run up and down the dirt road as we pulled up, putting on a puppet show and feeling like my arm was going to fall off at the shoulder (you don’t know what a real workout is until you try operating puppet for 10 minutes), making a piñata and seeing the kids faces as candy fell from it, and all of the joyful smiles and laughter not just from the children but from the adults. I remember playing follow the leader with a group of boys and somehow (it always comes to this in some way) ended up throwing the boys into the air and by the time I felt my arms could take no more, got tackled and piled on by all them. All of the laughing, laughing, laughing.

Who am I? Who am I to get to bring joy to the hurting, depressed, and lonely? Who am I to get to bring the love of Jesus to those who have never heard His name? Who am I to hold the hand and love on a baby that will never know his/her earthly father? Who am I to lead a man to Jesus while his wife is dying in the hospital bed next to us? Who am I to pray for the sick and see them healed? Who am I?!

All of these thoughts racing through my mind as I lay there on the floor and God decided to speak to my heart. He didn’t say much, but it was enough to pierce my heart to its core, to change the course of my life…again. He said five simple yet profound words, “This is where you belong…”

I couldn’t help it… I smiled.


Step Up, Step Out (A Thought)

Sometimes there are needs that need to be met and most of the time you are able to meet those needs. It may be meeting another person’s need of food, water, shelter, or clothing. It may be a need to make a change in our society; maybe you see that the local government needs to change and you are just the person to do it. There are times in our lives when we see things…when we know that something needs to be done…but how many times do we believe we can make a change? How many times do we step up and step out of our comfort zones? If you read the story of David and Goliath you’ll read of a young boy who killed a giant, who took his (the giants) sword and cut his head off with it. But something you won’t read is where God told David to go and do it. God never told David, “I want you to go and take care of that giant Goliath and when you kill him I want you to cut his head off so that all the Philistines know that I am the Lord.” Never did God say that to David. The young shepherd boy saw an issue that wasn’t being taken care of and decided to do something about it. He decided to step up and step out to show the world how big his God is, David said to Goliath and all the Philistines, “I come at you in the name of God-of-the-Angel-Armies, the God of Israel’s troops, whom you curse and mock. This very day God is handing you over to me.” I believe that God is waiting for many of us to step up and out of our places of comfort and break out of the everyday “ordinary”. I believe that when we make a choice to do something to make a difference that God will honor that. I believe that God will work on our behalf when we have faith that it’s through Him that we can make a difference in our world. So I want to ask you this question…

“What are you doing to step up and step out to change our world and impact it for the Kingdom?”